6.30.2010

Alternative

Definition: "An umbrella term for underground music that has emerged in the wake of punk rock since the mid-1980s. Throughout much of its history, alternative rock has been largely defined by its rejection of the commercialism of mainstream culture. Alternative bands during the 1980s generally played in small clubs, recorded for independent labels, and spread their popularity through word of mouth. As such, there is no set musical style for alternative rock as a whole, although The New York Times in 1989 asserted that the genre is 'guitar music first of all, with guitars that blast out power chords, pick out chiming riffs, buzz with fuzztone and squeal in feedback.' Sounds range from the dirty guitars of grunge to the gloomy soundscapes of gothic rock to the guitar pop revivalism of Britpop to the shambolic performance style of twee pop. More often than in other rock styles, alternative rock lyrics tend to address topics of social concern, such as drug use, depression, and environmentalism. This approach to lyrics developed as a reflection of the social and economic strains in the United States and United Kingdom of the 1980s and early 1990s." (Wikipedia)

Sidonie's Side Notes: Very similar to indie, but not quite the same. It's easy to confuse them. Alt is more mellow... it's the kind of music that I listen to while doing homework. Most of the bands I listen to are alternative.

Sidonie's favs/current obsessions:
Bands- Armor For Sleep, Death Cab For Cutie (Death Cab), Lifehouse, Nickelback, The Fray, Muse, The Killers, Red Hot Chili Peppers (RHCP), Rise Against, Fountains of Wayne, Coldplay, R.E.M.
Songs- Raindrop by Armor For Sleep, I Will Follow You Into The Dark by Death Cab, Tiny Vessels by Death Cab, Soul Meets Body by Death Cab, You Can Do Better Than Me by Death Cab, No Sunlight by Death Cab, She Says by Howie Day, Collide by Howie Day, From Where You Are by Lifehouse, Whatever It Takes by Lifehouse, You & Me by Lifehouse, Far Away by Nickelback, If Everybody Cared by Nickelback, Come Home by One Republic, All The Right Moves by One Republic, Never Say Never by The Fray, Look After You by The Fray, You Found Me by The Fray, Over My Head (Cable Car) by The Fray, Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol, Uprising by Muse, Assassin by Muse, Starlight by Muse, Supermassive Black Hole by Muse, Romeo & Juliet by The Killers, A Dustland Fairytale by The Killers, Mr. Brightside by The Killers, When You Were Young by The Killers, Human by The Killers, That's What You Get by Paramore, Decode by Paramore, Ignorance by Paramore, Misery Business by Paramore, Under The Bridge by RHCP, Scar Tissue by RHCP, Snow (Hey Oh) by RHCP, Can't Stop by RHCP, Audience of One by Rise Against, Paper Wings by Rise Against, Savior by Rise Against, Entertainment by Rise Against, Valley Winter Song by Fountains of Wayne, Stacy's Mom by Fountains of Wayne, All Kinds Of Time by Fountains of Wayne, The Scientist by Coldplay, Fix You by Coldplay, Yellow by Coldplay, Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop by Landon Pigg, Nightswimming by R.E.M., Losing My Religion by R.E.M., Everybody Hurts by R.E.M., Amber by 311, Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade, Your Call by Secondhand Serenade, White Lines & Red Lights by Between the Trees

Lyrics: Valley Winter Song...
Hey Sweet Annie
Don't take it so bad
You know the summer's coming soon
Though the interstate is choking under salt and dirty sand
And it seems the sun is hiding from the moon

Your daddy told you
When you were a girl
The kind of things that come to those who wait
So give it a rest girl
Take a deep breath girl
And meet me at the Bay State tonight

And the snow is coming down
On our New England town
And it's been falling all day long
What else is new?
What could I do?
I wrote a valley winter song
To play for you

And late December
Can drag a man down
You feel it deep in your gut
Short days and afternoons spent puttering around
In a dark house with the windows painted shut

Remember New York
Staring outside
As reckless winter made its way
From Staton Island to the Upper West Side
Whiting out our streets along the way

And the snow is coming down
On our New England town
And it's been falling all day long
What else is new?
What can I do?
But sing this valley winter song
I wrote for you x2

Raindrops...
You appear like raindrops
And leave like you sink through
The streets that you fall on
The cars that slip on you
All of this for just one night

Suffocate me, all you need,
I won’t breathe but it’s okay
You’ll be somewhere around me
And I won’t need air

The clouds will break my house
And throw me from my room
I’ll drown in the rainfall
And float till I find you

You appear like raindrops
And leave like you sink through
The streets that you fall on
The cars that slip on you
All of this for just one night

Suffocate me, all you need,
I won’t breathe but it’s okay
You’ll be somewhere around me
And I won’t need air

And I won’t need air
And I won’t need air
And I won’t need air
And I won’t need air
And I won't need air

Suffocate me, all you need,
I won’t breathe but its okay
You’ll be somewhere around me
And I won’t need air

Suffocate me, all you need,
I won’t breathe but its okay
You’ll be somewhere around me
And I won’t need air

Tiny Vessels...
This is the moment that you know
That you told her that you loved her but you don't.
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.
Yeah, she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.

I spent two weeks in Silver lake
The California sun cascading down my face
There was a girl with light brown streaks,
And she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me.
Yeah, she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me.

I wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking,
As we moved together in the dark
And all the friends that I was telling
All the playful misspellings
and every bite I gave you left a mark

Tiny vessels oozed into your neck
And formed the bruises
That you said you didn't want to fade
But they did, and so did I that day

All I see are dark Grey clouds
In the distance moving closer with every hour
So when you ask "Is something wrong?"
I think "You're damn right there is but we can't talk about it now.
No, we can't talk about it now."

So one last touch and then you'll go
And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
But it was vile, and it was cheap
and you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me
yeah you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me (x2)

Emo/screamo

Definition: "A style of rock music typically characterized by melodic musicianship and expressive, often confessional lyrics. It originated in the mid-1980s hardcore punk movement of Washington, D.C., where it was known as "emotional hardcore" or "emocore" and pioneered by bands such as Rites of Spring and Embrace. As the style was echoed by contemporary American punk rock bands, its sound and meaning shifted and changed, blending with pop punk and indie rock and encapsulated in the early 1990s by groups such as Jawbreaker and Sunny Day Real Estate. By the mid 1990s numerous emo acts emerged from the Midwestern and Central United States, and several independent record labels began to specialize in the style." (Wikipedia)

Sidonie's Side Notes: MAJOR WARNING! The lyrics are usually about self hatred, self mutilation and suicide. You must prepare to feel legit emotion when listening to this kind of music. You will more than likely cry and want to go die in a hole. Why do you think it's called 'emo'? That's short for EMOTIONAL!

Sidonie's favs/current obsessions:
Bands- Hawthorne Heights, Flyleaf, Evanescence, Simple Plan, Blue October
Songs- Goodbye (I'm Sorry) by And Then I Turned Seven, Ohio Is For Lovers by Hawthorne Heights, I'm So Sick by Flyleaf, There for You by Flyleaf, So I Thought by Flyleaf, Cassie by Flyleaf, Zero by Hawk Nelson, Missing by Evanescence, My Immortal by Evanescence, Bleed by Evanescence, Together Again by Evanescence, Broken by Seether & Amy Lee, Perfect by Simple Plan, Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan, Untitled (How Could This Happen To Me) by Simple Plan, Black Orchid by Blue October, Calling You by Blue October, Into The Ocean by Blue October, Hate Me by Blue October

Lyrics: Ohio Is For Lovers...
Hey there,
I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all.
Where you are and how you feel.
With these lights off as these wheels
keep rolling on and on. (and on and on and on...)
Slow things down or speed them up.
Not enough or way too much. (and on and on and on...)
How are you when I'm gone?

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.
[x2]

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

(YOU...KILL...ME...WELL)
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
My final breath is gone
So I can fall asleep tonight

[Chorus:]
And I can't make it on my own.
(And I can't make it on my own.)
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

(YOU...KILL...ME...WELL)
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
[to fade]

Goodbye (I'm Sorry)...
Time has run out, for me.
Everything's distant and I don't know what to believe.
It's so hard, lost in the world confusion.
And I need to leave, for a while.
Life is so meaningless, there is nothing worth a smile.
So goodbye, I'll miss you.

And I'm sorry, but this is my fate.
Everything is worthless, no one who wants me to stay.
And I'm sorry, but I've waited too long.
So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me.
I'm not worth any tears.

It's been the years, of abuse.
Neglected to treat the dissorder,
That controls my youth, for so long.
I'm in a fleshy tomb, burried up above the ground.
It's no use, why should I hold on?
It's been five years, don't need one more.
So goodbye, life's abuse.

And I'm sorry, but this is my fate.
Everything is worthless, no one who wants me to stay.
And I'm sorry, but I've waited too long.
So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me.
I'm not worth any tears.

(Every 18 minutes, somebody dies from a suicide.
Every 43 seconds, somebody attempts one.
If you, or anybody you know, is suicidle,
Call 1-800-784-2433.)

And I'm sorry, but this my fate.
Everything is worthless, no one who wants me to stay.
And I'm sorry, but I've waited too long.
So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me.
So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me.
I'm not worth any tears.

I'm So Sick...

I will break into your thoughts
With what's written on my heart
I will break, break

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

If you want more of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you'll shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your itching ears

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

Hear it, I'm screaming it
You're heeding to it now

Hear it! I'm screaming it!
You tremble at this sound

You sink into my clothes
And this invasion
Makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

I'm so sick
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so
I'm so sick
I'm so
I'm so sick

Metal

Definition: "Heavy metal is traditionally characterized by loud distorted guitars, emphatic rhythms, dense bass-and-drum sound, and vigorous vocals. Metal subgenres variously emphasize, alter, or omit one or more of these attributes. New York Times critic Jon Pareles writes, 'In the taxonomy of popular music, heavy metal is a major subspecies of hard rock—the breed with less syncopation, less blues, more showmanship and more brute force.' The typical band lineup includes a drummer, a bassist, a rhythm guitarist, a lead guitarist, and a singer, who may or may not be an instrumentalist. Keyboard instruments are sometimes used to enhance the fullness of the sound, but rarely are other instruments incorporated." (Wikipedia)

Sidonie's Side Notes: Absolutely NOT EVER to be confused with Emo and/or screamo. They're VERY different.

Sidonie's Favs/current obsessions:
Bands- Avenged Sevenfold (A7X), Bullet For My Valentine (Bullet), Korn, Disturbed, Three Days Grace (3DG), System Of A Down (SoaD)
Songs- Dear God by A7X, Scream by A7X, Afterlife by A7X, A Little Piece Of Heaven by A7X, All These Things I Hate by Bullet, Hearts Burst Into Fire by Bullet, Hit The Floor by Bullet, Evolution by Korn, Falling Away From Me by Korn, Freak On A Leash by Korn, Down With The Sickness by Disturbed, Stricken by Disturbed, Perfect Insanity by Disturbed, I Hate Everything About You by 3DG, Over and Over by 3DG, On My Own by 3DG, Toxicity by SoaD, Chemicals by Scars On Broadway, B.Y.O.B by SoaD, Sugar by SoaD, Chop Suey! by SoaD, Violent Pornography by SoaD, Aerials by SoaD

Lyrics: Down With The Sickness...
(Can you feel that?)
(Oh shit)
Ooh ah ah ah ah!
Ooh ah ah ah ah!
Drowning deep in my sea of loathing
Broken your servant I kneel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems what's left of my human side
Is slowly changing ... in me
(Will you give in to me?)

Looking at my own reflection
When suddenly it changes
Violently it changes
Oh no, There is no turning back now
You've woken up the demon ... in me

Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up
Come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up
Come on get down with the sickness
Madness is the gift, that has been given to me

I can see inside you, the sickness is rising
Don't try to deny what you feel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems that all that was good has died
And is decaying in me
(Will you give in to me?)

It seems you're having some trouble
In dealing with these changes
Living with these changes
Oh no, the world is a scary place
Now that you've woken up the demon ... in me

Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up
Come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up
Come on get down with the sickness
Madness is the gift, that has been given to me

And when I dream
And when I dream
And when I dream
And when I dream!!!!
No mommy, don't do it again
Don't do it again
I'll be a good boy
I'll be a good boy, I promise
No mommy don't hit me Oh-oohh
Why did you have to hit me like that mommy?
Don't do it! You're hurting me Oh-oohh!
Why did you have to be such a bitch?
Why don't you,
Why don't you fuck off and die?
Why can't you just fuck off and die?
Why can't you just leave here and die?
Never stick your hand in my face again bitch
FUCK YOU!!!
I don't need this shit
You stupid sadistic abusive fucking whore
Would you like to see how it feels mommy?
Here it comes, get ready to die!

Ooh ah ah ah ah!
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up
Come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up
Come on get down with the sickness
Mad-ness has now come over me

I Hate Everything About You...
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet

Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don’t miss you yet

Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet

Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me

I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?

Chemicals...
Well I slapped your face,
you fell in love when I said "FUCK YOUR MOM!"
I looked at you and said "It's all over!"

I turned around and walked away
and you just grabbed my arm
Well I looked at you said "I can't stay sober"

Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals
Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals.

MADNESS! Feeling scared,
looking around and nobody's there.
When I say "Fuck the world,
Let's get ready to rock!"
As I piss on your face while you suck on my cock.

MADNESS! No one cares,
looking around and nobody's there,
when I say, "Fuck the world, let's get ready to rock!"
As I piss on your face while you suck on my cock.

Oh maybe, baby,
won't you rape me, wont you fantasize
What about the time when we were lovers?
Well I tryed to phone you,
tryed to warn you but no compromise.
Well I grabbed your ass under the covers.

Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals
Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals
MADNESS! Feeling scared,
looking around and nobody's there,
When I say "Fuck the world, let's get ready to rock!"
As I piss on your face while you suck on my cock.

MADNESS! No one cares,
looking around and nobody's there,
when I say "Fuck the world, let's get ready to rock!"
As I piss on your face while you suck on my cock.

Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals
Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals
Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals
Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals
Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals
Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals

MADNESS! Feeling scared,
looking around and nobody's there
When I say "Fuck the world, let's get ready to rock!"
piss on your face while you suck on my cock

MADNESS! No one cares,
looking around and nobdy's there,
when I say "Fuck the world, let's get ready to rock!"
As I piss on your face while you suck on my cock

Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals!
Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals!
Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals!
Come eat some chemicals with me,
come eat some chemicals.

Music again

Okay, so, I already have a ton of posts about music lol but I'm gonna put more!
I'm going to make a post about my fav bands/artists (or bands/artists that I have a current obsession with) of like every genre that I listen to... which is a lot of genres... :D
so, I'm gonna start now! Here's the order of posts that I'm gonna do:
-Metal
-Emo/screamo
-Alternative/rock
-Pop
-Country
-Electronic
-Punk
-Rap/hip hop
-Indie
-Pop Latino
-Comedy
Sound good? If you have any suggestions, please, feel free to tell me.

6.29.2010

When You're Gone (in the dark)

Long nights
Hours spent awake
Sleepless hours
In the dark.
Darkness is my friend
It's the one who is here
When you're far away
When you're asleep
In your bed
Far away.
Darkness is my friend
For it hides my tears
It hides my scars
It hides my broken heart.
In the long
Sleepless nights
I lie in darkness
While you're far away.

6.27.2010

Random Obsessions Etc.



-Keeping You A Secret by Julie Anne Peters (book)
-Love The Way You Lie by Eminem (song)
-The Postal Service (band)
-Lady Gaga Unreleased (album/songs)
-Animal (album)
-The Albatross EP (album)
-Devin (person)
-Lesbian erotica stories (books? kinda?)
-Writing songs

More to come...

6.26.2010

Lady Gaga

Love her. She has 11 unreleased songs and they're... great. They're on her website, but here's the titles of them:

Blueberry Kisses
Fever
Kandy Life
No Way
Reloaded
Ribbons
Rock Show
Sexy Ugly
Second Time Around
Retro Physical
Retro, Dance, Freak

SO GOOD!

6/25

OMG so yesterday I went to Eby's house with Jak, Lily, Steev, Henry M. and Dylan...
it was hella funny cuz we watched The Haunting In Connecticut. I must say, it was a pretty good movie, and it wasn't THAT scary, just super gross and creepy. Although... we all did huddle on the couch and scream like little girls. Mostly Jak and Dylan did, so it's okay. And Lily went home like half-way through the movie, so Eby like walked her outside in the dark and it was pretty scary lol. But I actually did have a lot of fun.

6.24.2010

Hide & Seek

Where are we?
What the hell is going on?

Emotions

"How was your day?" Your mom asks, and you reply, "fine."
"How are you?" An acquaintance asks, and you reply, "good," even if that's not the truth.
People express emotion in all kinds of ways. Some through words, some through music, some by their actions... and some not at all. We use emotions like "sad," "happy," and "mad" on in conversations every day, but what other emotions are there really? Oh, there are so many. Here's a list of emotions for us to use in everyday conversation. I'm going to put a star next to all of the ones that I've felt in the past week, and an umbrella next to all of the ones that I'm feeling right now, as I'm writing this.

Abandoned ✭ ☂
Abhor
Ablaze
Abominable
Abrasive
Absorbed
Absurd ✭
Abused ✭ ☂
Abusive ✭ ☂
Accommodating
Acknowledged ✭
Acquiescent
Acrimonious
Admonished ✭
Adoration ✭
Adored ✭
Adventurous ✭
Adverse
Affected
Affectionate ✭
Afflicted ☂
Affronted
Afraid ✭ ☂
Aggravated ✭ ☂
Aggressive ✭
Agitated ✭
Agonized ✭ ☂
Agony ✭ ☂
Agreeable
Airy
Awkward ✭
Alienated ✭ ☂
Alive ✭
Alluring ✭
Alone ✭ ☂
Altruistic
Ambiguous
Ambitious ✭
Amenable
Amorous ✭
Amused
Anger
Angry ✭ ☂
Anguished
Animated
Annoyed ✭
Anxiety
Anxious ✭
Apathy
Appealing
Appeasing
Appetizing ✭
Appreciation
Apprehensive
Ardent
Arduous
Argumentative ✭
Armored
Aroused ✭
Arrogant
Astounded ✭
Attentive
Avoidance ✭
Beaten down ✭ ☂
Bemused
Betrayed ✭ ☂
Bewildered ✭
Bewitched
Bitchy ✭
Bitter ✭ ☂
Blah ✭
Blessed ✭
Blissful ✭
Blunt
Boiling
Bored
Bothered ✭ ☂
Brave ✭
Breathless ✭
Breezy
Bright
Broken ✭ ☂
Bruised ✭ ☂
Buoyant
Burdensome
Bursting
Callous
Calm ✭
Captivated
Captivating
Careless ✭
Caring ✭
Celebrating
Chagrined
Charmed
Charming ✭
Chastened
Cheerful ✭
Cherishing
Clandestine
Clear
Cold ✭
Cold-blooded
Collected
Comatose
Comfortable
Compassion ✭
Competitive ✭
Complacent
Composed ✭
Concerned ✭ ☂
Confused ✭ ☂
Congenial
Content ✭
Cool
Copasetic
Coping ✭
Cordial
Cornered
Creative ✭
Crucified ✭
Crushed ✭ ☂
Cursed
Cushy
Cut down
Dainty
Defensive ✭ ☂
Dejected
Delectable ✭
Delicate ✭
Delighted ✭
Demure
Depressed ✭ ☂
Desirable ✭
Desired ✭
Desolate ✭
Despair ✭
Despondent
Devoted ✭
Devoured
Discomfort ✭
Discontented ✭ ☂
Disgust ✭
Dismal
Dispassionate
Displeased ✭
Disregard ✭ ☂
Disregarding
Distracted ✭
Distressed ✭
Disturbed ✭
Doldrums
Don't mind ✭
Doomed ✭
Droopy ✭
Dull ✭
Eager ✭
Earnest
Easy
Ecstatic
Electric ✭
Enchanted
Endearing ✭
Enduring ✭
Engaging
Enlivened
Enraged ✭
Enraptured
Enthused
Enthusiastic
Enticing
Even tempered ✭
Exacerbated
Exasperated ✭ ☂
Excited ✭
Exciting ✭
Exhausted ✭ ☂
Exultation
Fanatical ✭
Fascinated ✭
Fascinating ✭
Fear
Fearful
Fearing
Fervent
Fervor
Fiery ✭
Flared up
Flattering ✭
Flushed ✭
Flustered ✭
Fluttery
Foaming at the mouth
Forbearance
Fortitude
Frantic ✭
Fretful ✭
Frigid
Frisky ✭
Frustration ✭
Full
Fuming ✭ ☂
Fun ✭
Funny ✭
Furious ✭
Galvanized
Gay ✭ (always) ☂
Genial
Giggly ✭
Glad ✭
Glee
Gleeful
Gloomy ✭
Glowing ✭
Gnawing
Good ✭
Goodness
Grateful ✭
Gratified
Gratitude ✭
Grave
Grief ✭
Grim ✭
Griped
Grounded
Gushing ✭
Haggard
Half-hearted ✭
Hardened ✭
Harsh ✭
Having Fun ✭
Hearty ✭
Heavy ✭
Hectic ✭
Hilarious ✭
Hope ✭✭✭ (HAHA)
Hopeful
Horrific
Horrified ✭
Horror-stricken
Humorous ✭
Hurt ✭ ☂
Hysterical ✭
Impetuous
Imposing
Impressed ✭
Impressionable
Impulsive ✭
Indulged ✭
Indulgent
Inept
Infelicitous
Inflexible
Infuriated ✭
Insatiable
Insensitive ✭
Insouciant
Inspired
Interested
Intimidated ✭ ☂
Intrigued
Inviting
Irrepressible
Irritated ✭ ☂
Irritation ✭
Jaunty
Jealous ✭ ☂
Jittery ✭
Jolly ✭
Jovial ✭
Joyful ✭
Jubilation ✭
Languid
Languish
Laugh ✭
Lethargic ✭
Light hearted ✭
Lively ✭
Loathing ✭ ☂
Lonely ✭ ☂
Lonesome ✭
Long-suffering ✭
Lost ✭ ☂
Love ✭
Loved ✭
Loving ✭
Luxurious ✭
Mad ✭
Manic ✭
Martyr
Meddlesome
Melancholy ✭ ☂
Melodramatic ✭ ☂
Merry
Mindful ✭
Mindless ✭
Mirthful
Miserable ✭ ☂
Moderate
Mopey ✭
Mortified ✭ ☂
Moved
Nervous ✭
Nonchalant ✭
Nostalgic ✭ ☂
Not caring ✭
Numb ✭ ☂
Optimistic
Over the edge ✭ ☂
Overflowing ✭
Over-wrought
Pain ✭ ☂
Panic ✭
Paralyzed
Passionate ✭
Passive ✭
Patient ✭
Peace of mind
Perky ✭
Perplexed ✭
Perturbation
Petrified
Piquant
Pitied ✭
Placid
Plagued
Pleasant
Pleasured ✭
Pressured ✭
Pride ✭
Protected ✭
Proud ✭
Provocative ✭
Provoked ✭ ☂
Quarrelsome ✭
Quenched
Quiet
Quivery ✭
Radiant
Rash ✭
Raving
Ravished
Ravishing
Ready to burst ✭ ☂
Receptive
Reckless
Reconciled
Refreshed
Rejected ✭ ☂
Rejoice
Relish
Repressed ✭
Repugnant
Resentful ✭
Resentment ✭ ☂
Resigned
Resistant ✭
Restrained ✭
Restraint ✭
Revived
Ridiculous ✭ ☂
Romantic ✭
Rueful ✭ ☂
Safe
Satiated
Satisfied ✭
Scared ✭
Secretive ✭ ☂
Secure
Sedate
Seduced ✭
Seductive ✭
Seething
Selfish ✭
Sensational
Sensual ✭
Sentimental ✭
Serious ✭
Shaken ✭ ☂
Shame ✭ ☂
Shielded
Shocked ✭
Shy ✭
Silly ✭
Simmering
Sincere ✭
Sinking
Smug
Snug
Sober ✭ ☂
Soft ✭
Solemn ✭
Somber ✭
Sore
Sorrow
Sorrowful
Sour ✭
Sparkling
Spastic
Spicy
Spirited
Spry
Stoic
Stranded ✭ ☂
Stressed ✭
Stricken
Stung ✭ ☂
Stunned ✭
Subdued ✭
Subjugated
Suffering ✭ ☂
Sunny
Supportive
Surrender
Susceptible
Suspended
Sweet ✭
Sympathy ✭
Taken advantage of ✭ ☂
Tame
Tantalizing
Tantrum-y ✭
Temperate
Tender ✭
The blues ✭ ☂
Thick-skinned ✭
Thin-skinned ✭
Threatened ✭
Thrilled ✭
Tight-lipped
Timid ✭
Tingly ✭
Tolerant ✭
Tormented ✭ ☂
Tortured ✭ ☂
Touched
Tranquil
Transported
Trepidation
Troubled ✭
Twitchy
Uncomfortable ✭
Unconcerned
Unconscious ✭
Uncontrollable ✭
Under pressure ✭
Undone ✭ ☂
Unfeeling ✭
Unhappy ✭ ☂
Unimpressed ✭
Unruffled
Used ✭ ☂
Vexed
Victimized ✭ ☂
Vivacious
Volcanic
Voluptuous
Vulnerable ✭ ☂
Warm ✭
Warmhearted
Weary ✭ ☂
Welcomed ✭
Whining ✭
Winsome ✭
Wistful ✭ ☂
Woeful
Worked up ✭ ☂
Worried ✭
Wounded ✭ ☂
Wretched ✭
Yearn
Yearning ✭
Yielding
Zeal
Zealous


You may notice all of these sad emotions... all of these things that basically say that I'm feeling unloved, alone, and all-together like shit... but, like Lady Antebellum one said, "I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all."

6.23.2010

Love Is Dead

something morbid i wrote.


How can I feel so alive when I die every night?
How can I feel so dead when you make me alive?
Don't sleep, don't eat, don't take one breath
'Cause tonight we're all gonna die

Stab my heart out, rip it to shreds, I know you would
Make it quick, make it painless,
And even when I'm dead I'll feel the everlasting pain
The pain that I feel when you're not here with me

I feel so alive, so alive but gone.
So far gone, I can barely see you,
Barely remember your face, though I see it in my dreams
My dreams of not hurting anymore, my dreams of being with you

A Rocket To The Moon!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, hi everyone! So, Jujubeez told me about this band called A Rocket To The Moon... THEY'RE SOOOOOO GOOD!
They're definitely electronic so idk if most of y'all would like them... but they're amazing and I'm gonna tell you about them anyways. So, here are the lyrics to the two songs of theirs that I love the most (so far)



Like We Used To:

I can feel her breath as she's sleeping next to me sharing pillows and cold feet. She can feel my heart, fell asleep to its beat. Under blankets and warm sheets. If only I can be in that bed again. If only it was me instead of him.

Does he watch your favorite movies? Does he hold you when you cry? Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts when you've seen it a million times? Does he sing to all your music while you dance to Purple Rain? Does he do all these things like I used to?

14 months and 7 days ago. Oh, I know you know how we felt about that night. Just your skin against the window. Oh, you took it slow. And we both know it should have been me inside that car. It should have been me instead of him in the dark....

Does he watch your favorite movies? Does he hold you when you cry? Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts when you've seen it a million times? Does he sing to all your music while you dance to Purple Rain? Does he do all these things like I used to?

I know love happens all the time, love (I'm a sucker for that feeling), You're on my mind, love (I always end up feeling cheated), And that happens all the time, love, YEAH (Oh darling I know I'm not needed)

Will he love you like i loved you? Will he tell you everyday? Will he make you feel like your invincible with every word he'll say? Can you promise if this one's right, don't throw it away? Can you do all these things? Will you do all these things like we used to?
Oh like we used to...

I Think About You Everyday:

Oh girl these nights are dull, I wish that i could spend them with you, I'm looking at this wall repeating "girl I love you." Just take your pick, they're all the same, these things that you are telling me, can't really show me how you feel... I'm breaking down, I'm falling down, but now I'm breathing and now I am scared to move. Don't listen to a word I tell you, just take me by my hand and I swear I'll make this up to you...

So now you want me to fix everything, but baby theres so much and so little time to replace the things I've broken, ripped apart, and thrown away, you can say that you dont miss me, I think about you every day...

Oh come on girl, there's so much to say, so instead of kidding everybody, how bout you try your tricks on me
on me (on me, on me...)

So now you want me to fix everything, but baby theres so much and so little time to replace the things I've broken, ripped apart, and thrown away, you can say that you dont miss me, I think about you every day...

Oh... Oh, do you know how this feels to see your face when I close my eyes, bet you know how it feels to be the only thing that matters now...

So now you want me to fix everything, but baby theres so much and so little time to replace the things I've broken, ripped apart, and thrown away, you can say that you dont miss me, I think about you every day...
So now you want me to fix everything, but baby theres so much and so little time to replace the things I've broken, ripped apart, and thrown away, you can say that you dont miss me, I think about you every day


Alright, so, here's their website: http://www.myspace.com/arockettothemoon
PLEASE CHECK THEM OUT CUZ THEY'RE AMAZING!!!

6.22.2010

Who'd Have Known?

So there's this girl I know. She's in love. She's got this great gal who she loves more than anything in the entire world. This gal, she's always there for this girl I know. She's always there, and she can always make her feel better. They're in love, and no one understands. There are a few who are happy for them and think that they are cute together, but those who know them best, and those who are supposedly their "best friends" don't get it. They don't get that they make each other happy, when before, both of them were a wreck. Their parents, too, don't get it. Especially the gal's parents. They reeeeaaaalllyyyyy don't like this girl I know. Yeah, it's kinda inconvenient for these beautiful, strong ladies who are just trying to make it in this world of homophobes and not-true friends. Sometimes, they don't see each other for a week or two at a time, because they're busy and often times out of town. But in the future, they'll be together always. In the distance, this girl I know can see that she'll be happy for a long, long time.
Love is beautiful.

idk

sometimes things just suck and we wanna cry and we wanna go die in a hole... sometimes we miss the ones we love and we feel like we have no friends. sometimes we get jealous, sometimes our allergies act up, sometimes we stay awake for hours on end just thinking about everything bad that goes on.

but...

sometimes everything is great. we just wanna smile and dance around our rooms in our underwear. sometimes, we see the ones we love and have great times with them that we'll remember for the rest of our lives. sometimes we meet new friends, or old friends come back in touch. sometimes we look in the mirror and thing, "wow, my life is f*cking fantastic." sometimes we stay awake for hours on end having fantasies about the future and the great things that could happen.

life is so bittersweet, isn't it?

Favorite Ke$ha Quotes

1. Your Love Is My Drug, "I like your beard."
2. Tik Tok, "The party don't start till I walk in..."
3. Take It Off, "Got a water bottle full of whiskey, in my handbag..."
4. Kiss N Tell, "You really shoulda kept it in your pants..."
5. Stephen, "I'll knit you a sweater..."
6. Blah Blah Blah, "Don't be a little bitch with your chit-chat..."
7. Hungover, "Now my heart is broken like the bottles on the floor..."
8. Party At A Rich Dude's House, "DUN DUN DUN DUN NUN NAH NAH NAH!!!"
9. Backstabber, "Honestly, I think it's kinda funny that you waste your breath talking about me, got me feeling kinda special really..."
10. Blind, I trusted you, you were the first, then you lied and it gets worse..."
11. Dinosaur, "You'll be walking around with that *sexy* tang of oxygen..."
12. Dancing With Tears In My Eyes, "When did I become such a hypocrite?"
13. Boots & Boys, "Cowboy boots, cowboy boys, mmm oh the joy..."
14. Animal, "I am in love with that we are, not what we should be..."

yum

hopefreedomjusticefaithfatedestiny:)

Special Someone

I told you I was posting something.

6.21.2010

Music= life.

SoulSong: Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol
LifeSong: Breakeven by The Script
PersonalitySong: Control by Metro Station
FavoriteSong: Raindrops by Armor for Sleep
HappySong: Hey, Soul Sister by Train
SadSong: Black Orchid by Blue October
FunnySong: E=mc Vagina by Jon LaJoie
ThinkSong: Pursuit of Happiness by Kid Cudi
FeelGoodSong: So Happy I Could Die by Lady Gaga
SexySong: Glow In The Dark by Chris Brown
BestieSong: Adam's Song by blink-182
RelationshipSong: In My Head by Jason Derulo, Space Oddity by David Bowie, Anywhere by Evanescence, Your Love is my Drug by Ke$ha and tons more.

Poem-Song

I wrote this. Should it be a poem or a song?
Someone, please, freakin' comment and tell me, cuz I seriously need help!

Where are you?
Why won't you stay?
Where is the light.
Where is the love?

Can't you see me?
I'm here, screaming your name
Don't let me fall away from you
Don't push me till I fall

You're watching me cry, letting us die,
You're letting me walk out the door
I'm waiting for you, waiting for you to stop me
I keep waiting, waiting and walking

Your eyes so distant, never gonna see
How it felt when you lied
How it felt when I believed...

Where are you?
Cuz now I'm gone
Not waiting for you to stop me
Not waiting, just walking

And now I can see
The love was never there

Animal xoxo

Okay, so, Helen gave me the Ke$ha CD! Yay! One listen, and the song "Animal" totally took my breath away. It reminds me sooo much of everyone in our class, graduating, etc... but it especially reminded me of Emily. The song is basically saying, like, okay... we don't have much time left... let's make the absolute best of it.
So yeah. This song makes me cry. Now here's the lyrics:

I am in love with what we are
Not what we should be
And I am, I am starstruck
With every part of this whole story

So if it's just tonight
The animal inside, let it live then die
Like it's the end of time
Like everything inside
Let it live then die

This is our last chance
Give me your hands
'Cause our world is spinning at the speed of light
The night is fading, heart is racing
Now, just come and love me like we're gonna die

I'm not asleep, I'm up for the fight
Into the magic
And I don't want the concrete
I am alive comes with the tragic
So if it's just tonight
The animal inside, let it live then die

This is our last chance
Give me your hands
'Cause our world is spinning at the speed of light
The night is fading, heart is racing
Now, just come and love me like we're gonna die

This is our last chance
Give me your hands
'Cause our world is spinning at the speed of light
The night is fading, heart is racing
Now, just come and love me like we're gonna die

6.20.2010

I like doing these :D

Answer all the questions honestly, no lying to avoid stuff.

starting time: 6:03 PM

Name: Sidonie

Sisters: :)

Brothers: :(

Eye Color: They change from light brown to black depending on my mood

Shoe size: 10

Height: 5’6"

What are you wearing right now: shorts, bra, undies, black tank top, glasses

Where do you live: Oakland

Favorite Number: 3, 17, 21, 69

Favorite Drink: Lemonade

Favorite Month: February and June

Favorite Breakfast: Belgian waffles

***********Have You Ever***********

Broken a bone: Yes

Been in a police car: No

Been on a plane: Yes

Been in a hot tub: Yes

Swam in the ocean: Yes

Fallen asleep in school: Yes

Broken someone’s heart: Yes :(

Cried when someone died?: Yes

Fell off your chair: Yes

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Yes

Saved e-mails: Yes

Been cheated on: Yes

***********What is************

Your room like? -It's very me

Whats right beside you? -A light

What is the last thing you ate? -Vitamins

———————-Ever Had- ————————-

Chicken pox: Nope

Sore throat: Yes

Stitches: Nope

Broken nose: Yes

————————-Do You————————–

Believe in love at first sight? -Hell yes

Like picnics? -Sure
———————————————————

Who was the last person you danced with? -Emily

Who last made you smile? -Emily

————————–Who—————————

Did you last yell at? -Umm idk, prolly Suki
Do you wear contact lenses or glasses? -Only fake ones

———-Final Questions————-

What are you listening to right now? -Rebel Rebel by David Bowie

What did you do today? -Get up at noon, talk to some people, give dad presents for Father's Day, clean up the back yard... other random stuff

Hate someone in your family? -No… not right now, at least.

Good singer? -Yes

Diamond or pearl? -Diamond

Are you the oldest? -HAHA YES!

Indoors or outdoors? -Either

——————Today did you———————-

1. Talk to someone you like? Like or like? -Excuse me?

2. Kiss anyone? -No

3. Get sick? -No

4. Sing? -Yes

5. Talk to an ex? -Yes

6. Miss someone? -Yes

7. Eat? -Yes

—————-Last person who——————

8. You talked to on the phone? -Random friends who prank called me

9. Made you cry? -Emily, but it wasn't like intentional

10. Went to the movies with? -Jak and Mori

11. You went to the mall with? -Helen, Emily and Izzy

——————Have you——————-

19. Been to Mexico? -No

20. Been to Canada? -No

——————-Random——————–

21. Have a crush on someone? -No

22. What books are you reading right now? -None

23. Best feeling in the world? -Orgasm, duh.

24. Future kids names? -Ziggy and Annie

25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? -Yes

26. What’s under your bed? -Wood

27. Favorite sport(s) to watch? -Soccer is cool I guess

28. Favorite location? -Wherever Emily is

32. Who do you really hate? -A lot of people

33. Do you have a job? -Yes

35. Ever liked someone you didn’t have a chance with? -Yes

36. You lonely right now? -Kinda

37. End time: 6:11 PM

6.19.2010

Music :D

Okay, so, music is one thing that makes me more happy than anything in the world (other than Emily, sorry to talk about her so much lol.) I've decided to share with you a few of the playlists that I have compiled and CDs, songs and artists that I'm into right now. Ready? Okay.

Playlists:
1) Homework Songs
-Raindrops by Armor for Sleep
-Breakeven by The Script
-Valley Winter Song by Fountains of Wayne
-Space Oddity by David Bowie
-Heroé by Enrique Iglesias
-Naked As We Came by Iron & Wine
-A Dustland Fairytale by The Killers
-Falling Slowly (American Idol Version) by Lee DeWyze and Crystal Bowersox
-No One Will Ever Love You by Magnetic Fields
-Scar Tissue by RHCP (Red Hot Chili Peppers)
-Like We Used To by A Rocket To The Moon
-Don't Take My Sunshine Away by Sparklehorse
-Getting It Wrong by Sparklehorse
-Lie To Me by 12 Stones
-Up In The Stars by Swimming With Dolphins
2) PaRtY SoNgZz
-Gettin' Over You by David Guetts
-Get Low by Lil Jon
-Donk by Soulja Boy
-Buy U A Drank by T-Pain
-I Eat The P***y by Team Sonar
-Say Aah by Trey Songz
-Hey Daddy by Usher
-I Invented Sex (Remix) by Trey Songz
-Airplanes by B.o.B.
-La Loba by Shakira
-Calle Ocho by Pitbull
-Rock That Body by Black Eyes Peas
-Bulletproof by La Roux
-Your Love by Nicki Minaj
-Radar by Britney Spears
-Birthday Sex (Uptempo) by Jeremih
3) Sexxi Songs
-I Invented Sex by Trey Songz
-I Invented Sex (Remix) by Trey Songz
-Shut It Down by Drake
-Gracias A Ti by Wisin Y Yandel
-Glow In The Dark by Chris Brown
-So Happy I Could Die by Lady Gaga
-Neighbors Know My Name by Trey Songz
4) Sidonie's Playlist (June)
-Mittelfinger hoch by Casper
-Beautiful by Eminem
-Falling Slowly by Glen Hansard and Markéta Irglová
-The Handshake by MGMT
-Like We Used To by A Rocket To The Moon
-Your Ex Lover Is Dead by Stars
-Up In The Stars by Swimming With Dolphins
-Starstrukk by 3OH!3
-Becky by Plies
-Hey Daddy by Usher
-Impossible by Shontelle
-Buy U A Drank by T-Pain
5) Summer Songs
-California Gurls by Katy Perry
-The Yeah Yeah Yeah Song by The Flaming Lips
-Naive by Lily Allen
-Dancing On The Lip Of A Volcano by The New York Dolls
-Satellite by Guster
-Pursuit Of Happiness by Kid Cudi
-Love Shack by The B-52's
-Party In The USA
6) Sexy Songs
-Starstrukk by 3OH!3
-Becky by Plies
-Your Love Is My Drug by Ke$ha
-Christmas Tree by Lady Gaga
-Look Back At Me by Trina
-Lil Freak by Usher
-FACK by Eminem
-In My Head by Jason Derulo
-Radar by Britney Spears
-Good Girls Go Bad by Cobra Starship
-Control by Metro Station

CDs:
Animal (Ke$ha)
The Bird and the Bee (
Changesbowie (David Bowie)
Welcome Interstate Managers (Fountains of Wayne)
Ambient Blue-EP (Swimming With Dolphins)
At War With The Mystics (The Flaming Lips)
The Soft Bulletin (The Flaming Lips)
Cosmic Thing (The B-52's)
Dear Science (TV On The Radio)
Demon Days (Gorillaz)
Dreamt For Lightyears In The Belly Of A Whale (Sparklehorse)
Electric Version (The New Pornographers)
The Fame Monster (Lady Gaga)
Fearless (Taylor Swift)
Flyleaf (Flyleaf)
Incredibad (The Lonely Island)
It's Not Me, It's You (Lily Allen)
Lenka (Lenka)
Narrow Stairs (Death Cab For Cutie)
Ocean Eyes (Owl City)
Oracular Spectacular (MGMT)
Ready (Trey Songz)
Summer 07 EP (A Rocket To The Moon)
Thank Me Later (Drake)
The Twilight Saga: New Moon Soundtrack
Want (3OH!3)
1 (The Beatles)
69 Love Songs (The Magnetic Fields)
69 Love Songs, Vol. 2 (The Magnetic Fields)

Artists:
TV On The Radio
Sahara Hotnights
Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers
Fountains of Wayne
David Bowie
The B-52's
Magnetic Fields
New Pornographers
Sparklehorse
The Flaming Lips
A Rocket To The Moon
Swimming With Dolphins
Iron & Wine

Songs:
God... there's so many... so I'm only gonna put a few!
Ziggy Stardust by David Bowie
Space Oddity by David Bowie
Fame ('90 Remix) by David Bowie
She Don't Use Jelly by The Flaming Lips
The Spark That Bled by The Flaming Lips
Are You A Hypnotist? by The Flaming Lips
Valley Winter Song by Fountains of Wayne
All Kinds of Time by Fountains of Wayne
I Think About You Everyday by A Rocket To The Moon
Like We Used To by A Rocket To The Moon
Silhouettes by Swimming With Dolphins
Up In The Stars by Swimming With Dolphins
Don't Take My Sunshine Away by Sparklehorse
Getting It Wrong by Sparklehorse
The Most Beautiful Widow In Town by Sparklehorse
Saviour by LIGHTS
Tidal Wave by Owl City
Christmas Tree by Lady Gaga
Dinosaur by Ke$ha
!!!!!!!!!

Hope you enjoi :)
Also, if you want, I'll make you a personalized CD of some of the songs I think you'd like... based on your taste in music!
Just hit me up!

Story

Hey everyone! So basically, I'm writing a lesbian love story. It's kinda embarrassing cuz it's got some very graphic sexual scenes...butttt..... you guys wanna hear what I have so far? Yeah? Well too bad. Sorry, Emily decided that she wanted to hear it when it was done, so y'all have to wait too. But I must say... it's pretty epic... :)
It should be done soon though, don't fret my friends! And you all will be the first ones to hear it (next to Emily), I promise!
I love you all, faithful readers.
Much love!

2010...

It's Summer-- the same old thing every year. Except this year, in the fall, I won't be returning to Redwood Day, the school that I call home. This year I'll be starting at Bishop O'Dowd, a school with about as many freshman as most other schools have in total. I'll be going from a tiny pond to the ocean. Well, maybe not the ocean, but at least a lake with a river attached. I'm not afraid, however. I know the ins and outs of school, cuz I've been going for, what? 12 years? But I will miss my friends...

I have so many people to thank for this year. Starting with Emily. I'll come back to her in a bit, but I just feel I should thank her first.
Second, I wanna thank Helen and Sofi. They've been the best friends anyone could have. They've supported me through everything, and though they might not understand everything, they always listen to the shit that I have to tell them and give advice when they can.
Third, I wanna thank Izzy Klein. She's been trying to create a new self, and at the same time she takes the time to listen to me and keep her frustrations minimal... which I know can be difficult with me sometimes.
I also want to thank Kelly. She's been great. Though sometimes she can be a bit obsessive (jkjk! It just shows that she cares) she's amazing. She's helped me through like, everything. And at a price too.
Okay, now back to Emily... I wanna thank her for everything. a) for keeping me alive, b) for keeping me sane, c) for loving me, d) for always always being there for me even at 3 am... I can't believe that after three years of wanting her and wanting things to be the way they are now between us, it's finally happening. I can't believe that something as special as what we have exists, and I can't believe that I have it now. I didn't expect to have something like this for many, many years. I'm so lucky to have someone as beautiful, smart, hilarious, talented, and generally amazing in my life. I love you so much, Em. (4/14/10)

I love all of you girls! You've all helped me through a lot and you all mean something special in my heart! I'll miss you next year, but will never forget you. We'll see each other often, I promise :)
Much love <3