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it was all lies! why did you have to tell me such lies?

This is the first song that I've started that the melody for it like instantly came to me!! I've recorded some of it and I'll share as soon as I'm totally done. For now, here's the lyrics.

Verse 1: I never thought you to be the girl to run when things got tough,
I never expected you to take the easy way out,
Cuz you were fixing the uneven pieces of my broken heart,
But now you're just another face in the crowd..

Verse 2: You used to call me every single day as many times as you could,
Cuz your mama'd never let me in her house,
And as the lines of the past and future  get finer,
It's too hard to imagine your smiling face now..

Chorus: Cuz you're the biggest piece in this puzzle I call life
Now that you're gone I can't figure out how
To put the pieces back together in the order they belong,
All I can do is try to move on...

Away

And when you're away
For a week at a time
With only a few days being home
I thought the pain
Would be easier to bear
But it's not,
Cuz I know you're not alone.

You have your companions
The one you've known since birth
And the one who you've stuck with in life
And the feelings you share
With these two other girls
Are worth more than I was ever worth

So you're off again
For a week at the most
With only a few days being home
And I'm here in bed
With my head on the pillow
Feeling your presence as if you were a ghost.

I hope you know what you did to me.
I hope you know how much pain you've caused.
And now my wounds are self inflicted, cuz you're not even around to hurt me anymore.
At this point I'm numb.
The only proof that I have that these past 3 months have been real is the countless pieces of paper in my trash can.
The notes, the pictures, the drawings, the CDs...
and our book...
remember that?
Yeah.
Someone better call the fire department quick cuz it's all gonna burn, just like my heart.
Oh, and by the way...
Happy anniversary.
I hope you're having as much fun with this as I am.

Beauty Secrets/Tips

• Put mint toothpaste on your zits to make them clear up faster. Warning: May be painful
• Hairspray and concealer covers scars ie. cut marks
• Put lemon in your shampoo of you have oily hair
• Put Jojoba oil in your hair every day if you have dry hair
• To do your own eyebrows, brush the hairs up first with a brow brush and trim the ones that are longer than your brow line with tiny scissors (if you don't have brow scissors, a mini Swiss Army knife works well too)... THEN pluck; but only the stray hairs above and below your brow line!

Pop

Definition: "Musicologists often identify the following characteristics as typical of the pop music genre: An aim of appealing to a general audience, rather than to a particular sub-culture or ideology. An emphasis on craftsmanship rather than formal "artistic" qualities. An emphasis on recording, production, and technology, over live performance. A tendency to reflect existing trends rather than progressive developments. Much pop music is intended to encourage dancing, or it uses dance-oriented beats or rhythms. The main medium of pop music is the song, often between two and a half and three and a half minutes in length, generally marked by a consistent and noticeable rhythmic element, a mainstream style and a simple traditional structure. Common variants include the verse-chorus form and the thirty-two-bar form, with a focus on melodies and catchy hooks, and a chorus that contrasts melodically, rhythmically and harmonically with the verse. The beat and the melodies tend to be simple, with limited harmonic accompaniment. The lyrics of modern pop songs typically focus on simple themes – often love and romantic relationships – although there are notable exceptions.

Sidonie's Side Notes: MAINSTREAMMM!!! Pop is my guilty pleasure. *Sigh.*

Sidonie's favs/current obsessions:
Artists- Lady Gaga, Katy Perry, Avril Lavigne, Beyonce, Britney Spears, Colbie Caillat, Coldplay, Jason Mraz, Jonas Brothers, Justin Bieber, Justin Timberlake, Ke$ha, Lenka, Lily Allen, Metro Station, Natasha Beddingfield, P!nk, The Pussycat Dolls, Sara Bareilles, Shakira, Shontelle, A Fine Frenzy, Fergie, Kate Nash, Kelly Clarkson, Rihanna
Songa- Thinking Of You by Katy Perry, So Happy I Could Die by Lady Gaga, Girlfriend by Avril Lavigne, If I Were A Boy by Beyonce, Piece of Me by Britney Spears, Fearless by Colbie Caillat, Lucky by Jason Mraz, Hello Beautiful by The Jonas Brothers, Somebody To Love by Justin Bieber, Dinosaur by Ke$ha, Like A Song by Lenka, Fuck You by Lily Allen, Control by Metro Station, Freckles by Natasha Beddingfield, Gravity by Sara Bareilles, La Loba by Shakira, Impossible by Shakira, Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy, Merry Happy by Kate Nash, Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson, Don't Stop The Music by Rihanna, California Gurls by Katy Perry, Christmas Tree by Lady Gaga, Backstabber by Ke$ha

Lyrics: Backstabber...
Backstabber (repeat 3x)

Bored, stoned, sitting in your basement
All alone, cause your little conversations
got around, now look at what we all found out
(look at what we, look at what we all found out)

You have got a set of loose lips, twisting stories
All because you're jealous
Now I know exactly what you're all about,
And this is what you're all about..

Girl, your such a backstabber,
Oh girl, you're such a shit talker
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Girl, your such a backstabber,
Run your mouth more than everyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

(Talk Talk Talk talk talk talk)
I'm sick and tired of hearing all about my life,
from other bitches with all of your lies,
wrapped up so tight, so maybe you should shut your mouth shut your mouth
Shut your fucking mouth

Honestly, I think its kinda funny that you waste
your breath talking about me,
Got me feeling kinda special really (so this is what your all about)


Girl, your such a backstabber,
Oh girl, you're such a shit talker
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Girl, your such a backstabber,
Run your mouth more than everyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Katie's just there repping my style,
Damn, Jeanie why you gotta tell the secrets about my sex life?
All I ever did was drive your broke ass around,
Pick you up, take you out,
when your car broke down

Backstabber (3x)

Girl, your such a backstabber,
Oh girl, your such a shit talker,
Everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Girl, your such a backstabber,
(taking and twisting it down your so manipulating .oh.)
Run your mouth more than everyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

talk.talk.talk. Backstabber(3x)
(taking and twisting it down your so manipulating .oh.)
Girl Talk talk
your looking like a lunatic
Everybody knows it (everybody knows it)

Everybody knows yeah...
your looking like a lunatic
and everybody knows yeah..

everybody knows
Backstabber(3x)

Control...
Another cigarette and I'm so bored
Your words aren't making sense
And I was taken but you were waiting
One more drink and I'm convinced

(Not one more sound)
Let your hair down
(Take the low road)
No one will know

Whoa
I feel just like we're taking control of the night
Of the night
Yeah
Yeah

Whoa

I feel just like we're losing control
But if you let go I'll let go tonight

Another minute lived
If you take me I'll take what you will give
I was late and she kept waiting
But I hope she knows where I've been

(Not one more sound)
Let your hair down
(Take the low road)
No one will know

Whoa
I feel just like we're taking control of the night
Of the night
Yeah
Yeah

Whoa
I feel just like we're losing control
But if you let go I'll let go tonight

I'm coming down
Bring me up
Take it off
Let's just touch

I'm coming down
Bring me up
Take it off
Let's just touch

I'm coming down
Bring me up
Take it off
Let's just touch

I'm coming down
Bring me up
Take it off
Let's just touch

Whoa
I feel just like we're taking control of the night
Of the night
Yeah
Yeah

Whoa
I feel just like we're losing control
But if you let go, I'll let go tonight

Almost Lover...
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind images
You sang me spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes clever trick

Well i?d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you?d want the same for me

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me in the shade
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget these images no

Well i?d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you?d want the same for me

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot try the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind

So you're gone and i'm haunted
And i bet you are just fine
Did i make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life?

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Why can't you just let me be?

So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Why am I doing this?
Why am I torturing myself
By listening to your messages,
Reading your IMs,
And thinking of you?
But I can't help it, you see
Everything I do reminds me of you
And how I wish giving you everything
How I wish losing everything
How I wish my everything
Was good enough for you.

Hurt

I wish it was all just a dream
A nightmare I could wake up from
In the morning it would stop.
I wish when I opened my eyes
The pain would cease
Because I knew it wasn't real.
But it isn't a dream
The pain lives on
It will haunt me night and day.
The emptiness, the hurt, the tears
The need to feel crimson drops down my arm
They're all reminders that I've lost you yet again

Song Quotes That Describe My Feelings

"I'm starting to feel we stay together out of fear of dying alone..." -Death Cab For Cutie
"Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play, now I long for yesterday..." -The Beatles
"High offa love
, drunk from the hate, it's like I'm huffing paint and I love it the more that I suffer. 
I sufficate
, and right before I'm about to drown
, she resuscitates me, 
she fucking hates me
 and I love it
. Wait, 
where you going
? 'I'm leaving you,' no you ain't, come back, we're running right back
, here we go again
 it's so insane
 cuz when it's going good
, it's going great! 
I'm Superman with the wind in his bag, she's Lois Lane, but when it's bad
, it's awful, 
I feel so ashamed..." -Eminem
"I'm just so f**kin' depressed I just can't seem to get out this slump..." -Eminem
"I hardly recognize the girl you are today, and God I hope it's not too late..." -Michael Buble
"While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleeping, cuz when I heart breaks, no it don't break even..." -The Script
"Can somebody please find the surgeon that can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart?" -The Postal Service
"I know you won't admit this, but I am just a silhouette to you. You found comfort with my distance, but you never let me stray out of your view. Who really needs the past with the allure of something new? So we split apart at last, went back to places that I knew before you..." -Swimming With Dolphins
"On the floor, I'm just a zombie. Who I am is not who I wanna be. I'm such a tragedy, with every move I die. I have destroyed our love, it's gone. Payback is sick, it's all my fault... I'm dancing with tears in my eyes, just fighting to get through the night, I'm losing it, with every move I die... I'm fading, I'm broken inside, I've wasted the love of my life, I'm losing it, with every move I die... this is it, and now your really gone this time, never once thought I'd be in pieces left behind..." -Ke$ha
"Why do you build me up, buttercup, baby, just to let me down?" -The Foundations
"And now when all is done, there is nothing to say, you have gone and so effortlessly. You have won, you can go ahead tell them... tell them all I know now, shout it from the roof top, write it on the skylines, all we had is gone now. Tell them I was happy, and my heart is broken, all my scars are open, tell them what I hoped would be impossible..." -Shontelle
"All I ask is for you to not tell anybody the secrets I told you..." -I think Postal Service?
"It could be wrong, but it shoulda been right..." -Muse
"You're not gone, cuz I never said goodbye..." -Faun Fables
"You did it to yourself, now you're all by yourself, acting like you hate me, I left because you made me..." -Gorilla Zoe
"I can't let go, no I can't let go of you, you're holding me back without even trying, I can't let go of the past, without lifting a finger you're holding me back..." -Landon Pigg
"And I just woke up, but I wish that it was a nightmare, cuz when I have those it isn't real like this one is, this is my heart, and I won't allow the disrespect..." -Lady Gaga